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Monthly Archives: November 2008

This morning I went with my friend Sammy to see “Twilight.” I didn’t want to have overly high hopes and then have them be crushed if the movie was a totally dorky/cheesy movie.  Not having high hopes proved me wrong.  I loved the movie!  It brought the book to life and I thought I wouldn’t like Edward (rather the actor who played Edward’s character), but I became smitten with him very quickly.

This movie was satisfyingly romantic and heart stopping.

I think I will definitely go see it again very soon.  I just might drag my mom to go see it. I can’t wait for the other 3 movies to come out eventually.

I took a nap this afternoon and now am feelig blah and not that great. I do know the flu is going around. I just hope I don’t have it. Maybe I just need more sleep.  Also need to focus on just being.


Well my goal of being still is still is in the process of ocurring.  After tidying up the apartment and getting laundry underway I am still restless. I hate not being able to relax on weekends.  It’s not even the whole my place is cluttered factor since it’s all tidy and nice.   I should be able to relax and just rest, read, write and most of just completely RELAX.  Rest my bones from go, go, going and I can’t seem to.

But when I go to my favorite coffee shop it’s like I’m in my own little cocoon and I am able to relax there. But I can only do so many  caffeine drinks in one day.

I’m planning tomorrow after watching, “Twilight,” to just relax on the couch to read, write and take  luxurious nap.  I need to just focus one day at a time and not have my mind jump way the heck ahead.

My right hand has been giving me grief with being sore and achy.  Not my wrist, but my fingers have felt stiff to where to extand my hand out out is achy.  Not sure if that’s carpel tunnel rearing it’s ugly head, or what’s up, but I’ll get a stress ball and maybe that will help my hand not be as sore.

Sunday I get to hang with my friend Sammy and go see “Twilight.” I can’t wait.  It will my first viewing and her third. It must be good if she’s up to going a third time. 🙂

It will be great to see the book on the big screen.  I just hope it does justice to the book.

This week has been off kilter since I had off Wednesday and Thursday and just worked three days.  I’m thrilled tomorrow is Saturday.

I’m hoping this weekend to just be. Still.  Contemplative. Refreshed

Thanksgiving today started out with sleeping in, waking up grumpy, trying to not be in a bad mood, eating two donuts for breakfast and bsing around on the computer before heading to my parent’s house for the big meal.

It was a full house and at first I felt a bit claustraphobic, but after my fogginess went away I felt better.

The meal was delicious and filling.  I made two pies yesterday.  They came out good via the people who were brave and ate some of them. Sadly I’m not a pumpkin pie fan.  I do like the B & R ice cream though.

My sister brought a game called Apples to Apples which was a lot of fun.  I’ll have to go buy it at Target or something.  It was nice to play a game as a family and have no fighting and it was actually enjoyable and fun!

Today thought of my BFF and her family as they mourn the year anniversary of their grandma’s passing.  So far it sounds like she’s holding up alright.

I’m not really in the mood to go to work, but at least it will be fast paced, so that I can get off and go eat dinner with my hubby and mother-in-law.

I did get a few pages of reading in today so that was great! I always get grumpy if I don’t get enough reading in.

Today I have off work so I can bake pies with my mother-in-law.  This should prove interesting since I don’t cook often if at all and I’m somewhat feeling under the weather.  I hope I’m not coming down with an ear infection.  Outside it’s stormy and it’s raining.  I love the fresh muddy earth smell that emanates through my windows.  It’s such a natural air freshener.

It’s weird how in life people come back into our lives (old friends) and then we make new ones that you know will last a lifetime.  I’m so thankful that God has brought new friends into my life like Sammy and Krys.  And brought back Kim, a friend from my childhood.

I’m trying to learn the art of having quality friends vs quantity.  You can have a bunch of friends and still feel lonely and then you can have a few select friends who truly know you and love you as is.  To me the later is more important.  Why drain energy in trying to become close with everybody when you can have the select few who you give your all to?

I’m learning the art of letting friends go.  I’m still close with them, but learning to let our friendship change to accommodate their life, so that they can experience new things.  To set them free.  I’ve finally come out of my depression of having my BFF move to TX.  I was very depressed one month before her and her family moved and now she’s been there 3 months and she’s loving it.  I’m thrilled for them.  I must admit a part of me is jealous they got to move to a new place and start over, but then again I’m learning to go with the flow and learn to be content where I’m at in this moment and not pine for what might not be. I’m learning to let new people come into my life and expand my BFF list.

I’m actually enjoying work! The long hours have changed me from complaining 24/7 and then the other day at work I was sitting there and I just got this huge sense of calmness and contentment.  Sure things aren’t perfect at work, but they’ve gone from hellish to enjoying who I work with and being thankful that I have such a secure job when other people are getting let go left and right because of the economy.

I’m hoping today to be able to work a bit on my story, cook, read, watch tv and enjoy the stormy weather!

This past week I’ve been listening to Taylor Swift’s new CD while at work and all her songs are so incredibly catchy, meaningful, breathtakingly addictive.  She’s such a gorgeous talented song writer and singer. It’s amazing how one song can make you feel like you’re back in high school again reliving lots of old memories that feel like they just happened yesterday.  I confess I almost cried while listening to, “Fifteen.”  She nailed my freshman year on the head.  Then with her song, “Love Story….” that one is just pure romantic. The music video is girlie and old fashioned and you feel like your a little girl again wishing for your prince. 🙂

I have officially wussed out of Nanowrimo this year. Work has been so insanely busy I’ve had no energy to type out the required words to make it and I’m o.k. with that. Bummed, but at peace.  I have a better idea of my story and am going to do more character sketcting with my Moleskine skeptchbook. Do the oldie brainstorming bubble with the spokes sticking out.

Still waiting for family to wake up this morning. Not sure what today’s agenda holds, but it might involve shopping, lunch, a movie and later on I get to make Christmas cards. Thirty of them.  Procrastination does suck.

Finally finished a book yesterday so I’m at 62 books read this year so far. Not sure I’m going to beat last year’s record of 89. I hope so!!

I’m supposed to be writing  my Nano story.  It’s day 9 and I’m way the heck behind on my count.  I’m plain stuck because I’m more worried about my story being somewhat readable vs writing a SFD (as Anne Lamont would say).  Stupid OCD getting me to be too anal about wording and story line.  The whole point of Nano is to complete to the 50K word goal and not freak out about storyline.  I could write a bunch of crap and as long as I hit my goal I will have made it.  I can always go back and fix what ever sounds awful.

I wish I had more energy to think or even to not care enough, but to just type what I need to.


And working 12 hour days doesn’t help motivate me either. 😦

This year seriously sucks.

I have been silent for a few days and now I am back.  Today begins the insanity of Nanowrimo 2008.  It’s a zany contest of sorts to compose a 50K worded novel in 30 days.  I have participated since 2005 and only made it in 2006.  I plan to win this for this year. I have absolutely no clue what my topic is or characters, but I’m sure they’ll come out of the wood works.

Plus, I’ve found free writing is my best writing.

For those of you who participate in this orgey of words do drop a note.

Here’s to the beauty of words and stories!