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Today I took a vacation day so that I could treat my mom to breakfast and than later on this afternoon treat my friend Julie to lunch for her upcomning birthday tomorrow.  It will be a day of celebrating life and enjoying others company.  Plus, I reconnected with an old friend from elementary school that I’m thrilled about discovering. The ironic thing is that she lives a mere 15 minutes away from me.  That great thing was we were both online this morning and got to chat for a bit.  I’m hoping to meet up with her some day soon.

I’ve been attending the Foursquare church down the street now since Decemeber.  Last month was a bit crazy with different activities on some weekends, so I missed a few servies, but I’m starting to get a bit involoved and make new friends.

Work has improved a lot.  We finally migrated closer to where I live so getting to work is much easier and it’s nice to have a real cubical to work in.

So far this year I’ve read 14 books.  I’m hoping to make it past 5 books for this month.

This new year is off to a great start! I got off work at a wonderful time and have an evening full of possibilites.

I don’t have many plans on my plate, which is nice.  I do, of course, have church tomorrow night which I’m looking forward to.

I may actaully get crackin’ and start character sketching tonight!

Some times I just lean back at work and am amazed at how blessed I am with the job I have (going now almost on 2 years!),  and how the simplest things in life can be the most rewarding.

I’m looking and hoping to focus on just ‘being’ this weekend and not overly ‘doing’.

Today I’m stuffed up, coughing and feel blah, but in the midst of feeling that way I have this peace and thankfulness for all that I have! I’ve spent the day reading a bunch, watching tv and laying on the couch and spending a little bit of time in the ‘quiet room’.

I’m hoping by morning I will feel better!  Some times I feel like I’ve been pushing myself more and more through each week.  Maybe I just need more sleep.

I’ve been trying to be ‘good’ and not eat meat.  It’s strange to go from loving meat aka steak, prime rib and ribeye.  I slipped up and had some suasuage/or chicken at my dpeartment Christmas potluck.  Prior to that I had chicken a week ago this past Saturday and I haven’t had beef since around December 2nd, so overall I’ve been fairly good about not eating meat.  I thought that this was going to be very hard and that I’d have serious withdrawls when it came to smelling meat cooking (Christmas day/Christmas parties), but it wasn’t that hard to be around it.  I even passed on prime rib at Christmas dinner.  Some might think, “Why not eat a tiny bit on a holiday,” but then I wouldn’t be staying with what I’m trying to do.  I’ve felt lighter, not bloated, slimer, and had a bit of stomach cramping, but other than that I’ve been holding up well.

Well going to go watch tv with my hubby before bed.  I hope I can sleep well…….darn nose! 😉

Last night went to take dinner over to my dad who had surgery yesterday.  I’m so thankful he was able to eat dinner.  I think the reality and seriousness of my families health is surreal.  You can go along in life with everything normal and then a surgery can be a life changing event and it can signify how one moment you can believe you’re robust and healthy and the next minute realize you are mortal, or rather your body is.

I have that on my mind and then going to church was nice.  I’m torn.  I know I need to plug in, but where?  I don’t know if I want to attend the church that is walking distance.  Their jargon is just what I left two years ago.  I don’t want big words, I want simplicity, honesty and real people.  I did enjoy the Foursquare church, but then I’m still wondering about the Unity church.  I want to make sure I agree with the teachings of where I choose to attend, but then I do want to be challenged in my life and not become complacent like I was before.  The Foursquare church felt familiar in it’s songs and format.  It felt like I was riding a bike and I remembered how to, although I did not sing on Sunday.  I was too, chocked up to. I barely eeked out some of the words.  The people at the Unity church were very welcoming and friendly.  The members at the Foursquare church were somewhat friendly.  The pastor’s wife sat next to me and I think she could sense how I felt. That did make a huge impact on me.  She took the time to make sure I felt welcomed and taken cared of vs leaving me to sit all alone.  One man did end up sitting next to me on my left, but it’s fascinating how you can be new somewhere and watch how people sit near, but not next to.

So I am torn where to attend.  I want some where close to home, a place that has activity options and friendly people. I want to be challenged and held accountable.  I don’t ever want to become stagnant again.

Tonight went to dinner with my  friend Sammy.  It’s weird how you can have a friend who is in your life who lives down the street and you don’t fully realize it till their almost moved away to attend college.  I wish I could move back time, but since I can’t move back time I’m going to enjoy the time  I have with her before she goes off to school and keep in touch via email and or snail mail. I already miss her, but know it’s going to be a wonderful adventure for her.

This weekend I’ve enjoyed relaxing, going to the powerful movie, “The Boy in the Stripped Pajamas,” going to dinner with Sammy and finishing up my wacky book called Winkie, about a teddy bear accused of being a terrorist. I’m not sure what tomorrow will bring.

Thursday night before the coffee shop party my BFF called to tell me she asked Jesus into her heart.  I have so many mixed emotions.  I know I’ve slacked on living my faith.  My mouth turns into potty mouth once in a while and I don’t pray as often as I used to.  I guess you could say I’ve become bitter towards the whole thing.  I’m so excited for my BFF. She’s so excited to go attending church again and her little boy loves going which is amazing for a now three year old to enjoy it, well the kid’s program anywyays.  It seems like her life is coming together. I think she can see how God’s bigger plan is and that even though it was painful for her to move away from family that God is in control and that He has such awesome things instore for her.

I know I need the social interaction and community that comes with church, but to go back and really commit is somewhat scary. I know I shouldn’t let the past hurts dictate what my present or future holds because that is letting the bad guy win vs showing that I’m not going to let someone else steer my spiritual emotions.  I need to decide for myself what is best for me.  I need to decide what I believe and then find a place I can call home.  I do need a real social life. I have a few friends, but work has sucked up my social/personal life.  I need to break that cycle, so I can live again vs being a hermit.